For many the decision to bring a child into this world is one that brings joy and fulfillment to one’s life. For myself, it was one that brought me into a world of frustration and distress. Do not misunderstand me – I am not saying that having a child is frustrating or distressing. What I am saying is that for many that are experiencing fertility problems, the process of trying to conceive (TTC) is a road that is wrought with frustration, disappointments, tears and anger.
I never had regular periods. My cycles yo-yoed non-stop – I can go up to six months without ever seeing a period, just like it can happen every two weeks. As a teenager, I had mentioned this to my doctor. She suspected it was polycystic ovary syndrome (PCOS) and ordered an ultrasound. That test turned out to be inconclusive. While I had the irregular periods, I lacked any of the other symptoms that accompany this condition. My doctor put me on birth control pills in order to regulate my cycles. Being the undisciplined teenager I was and having an aversion to swallowing pills, I soon stopped taking them. Hence, my irregular periods continued.
Already at the young age of 16, I was questioning what impact this could have on my fertility if and when I decided to have children. My doctor assured me that when I made that decision, they would test my fertility and there were plenty of options available to help me conceive.
In 2006, at the age of 27, I married the most wonderful person I know. We decided to start our family as soon as the “I do’s” were over with. A year later, I was finally diagnosed with PCOS.
This is how E. and I embarked the greatest adventure of our lives. No, it is not quite a trip backpacking around the world. However, it is a journey in which we will experience emotional highs and lows and we hope will culminate in a wonderful foray into parenthood.
Update – We did it! Just a few weeks short of the 6 year mark of our TTC journey, with IVF round 3 we finally got a positive pregnancy test! We are over the moon. We now get to embark on the next great adventure: parenthood!
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